This last weekend was kind of crazy... I ended up shattering one of my molars and had to have it pulled, on a Sunday none the less. Thankfully it is out and it's all over with and I have enough time to heal before the actual FET, and luckily I was already on antibiotics for my protocol to begin with.
Then i went early this morning and had my E2 drawn. While waiting for the results I kept having really bad cramping and a lot of EWCM. On a whim I decided to take a OPK... Mistake!
The stupid thing was positive!! (The one I took after that was negative though) But my estrogen is way too high for me to be ovulating on my own right now, especially when my ovaries were so quiet just 7 days ago. I stayed to suppressed on the birth control pills which is a much lesser dose of estrogen than the estradiol valerate injections. After a little bit of freaking out and waiting for the nurse to call me back, I finally got a hold of her...
She said my estrogen was about 359
which is exactly where they want it. And that they were going to be tagging on a progesterone test on my blood lab from today. But she's positive that I'm not ovulating and after I got some reassurance I realize that it is way too early for me to ovulate even if I wasn't being suppressed, on top of the fact that we know there were no follicles growing at my baseline...
It's so hard to not go to those dark places and assume that the cycle is going to get canceled because your body is stupid... It's hard to trust your body is going to do the right thing after years (literally five years ) of it doing the very wrong thing... But I must have hope and I must trust...
Breathe in... Breathe out...
I must stay positive... I must hope with out abandon, and pray without ceasing... This is going to work. It just has to ..
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